my house is full of junk!
Jun. 8th, 2009 10:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rose_of_painSo when Lyn isn't working...Lyn gets really antsy. She doesn't like the feeling of not doing anything. So she feels she has to do something.
On and off ever since college ended Lyn has been on this mission to try to make her living space (not her room mind you, Lyn only sleeps there and uses it as storage really, Lyn really lives downstairs in what was once a family room) actually look...decent.
Except every time Lyn tries to do this...she hits a rock. Or well really usually a gigantic stack of VHS tapes or a kitty toy that's never used or some unidentifiable-why-the-hell-do-we-have-this-THING! And can't figure out what to do with and tears her hair out in frustration and gives up.
So Lyn is back at it and frustrated only after a few hours of just trying to rearrange DVDs and videogames.
*cry* I just want to have space for things and for this place to finally stop looking like a mess. I got my room figured out but this space just never gets any better no matter how hard I try. T_T And its not all my fault as there is stuff belonging to my parents too down here and we're all such horrible horrible pack rats that never throw anything away. Gah!
Its horrible as I actually have to force myself to not look at something when throwing it away or giving it away, to not have second doubts, because I get so attached to everything. Everything. As a kid I would make everything into something amazing in my mind so even getting rid of some of the stupidest things is hard for me because everything has a memory. But a house full of memories is dangerous when you're tripping everywhere and have no space for anything new.
And well the real reason I don't invite people over very often is 'cause I'm also rather embarrassed by it. Though hopefully it will only be a few more years before I can move out and thus have a new space to arrange my stuff in and be forced to get rid of everything I don't need as I think that will finally get me to let go of stupid things I hold onto. *nod*
~Lyn
On and off ever since college ended Lyn has been on this mission to try to make her living space (not her room mind you, Lyn only sleeps there and uses it as storage really, Lyn really lives downstairs in what was once a family room) actually look...decent.
Except every time Lyn tries to do this...she hits a rock. Or well really usually a gigantic stack of VHS tapes or a kitty toy that's never used or some unidentifiable-why-the-hell-do-we-have-this-THING! And can't figure out what to do with and tears her hair out in frustration and gives up.
So Lyn is back at it and frustrated only after a few hours of just trying to rearrange DVDs and videogames.
*cry* I just want to have space for things and for this place to finally stop looking like a mess. I got my room figured out but this space just never gets any better no matter how hard I try. T_T And its not all my fault as there is stuff belonging to my parents too down here and we're all such horrible horrible pack rats that never throw anything away. Gah!
Its horrible as I actually have to force myself to not look at something when throwing it away or giving it away, to not have second doubts, because I get so attached to everything. Everything. As a kid I would make everything into something amazing in my mind so even getting rid of some of the stupidest things is hard for me because everything has a memory. But a house full of memories is dangerous when you're tripping everywhere and have no space for anything new.
And well the real reason I don't invite people over very often is 'cause I'm also rather embarrassed by it. Though hopefully it will only be a few more years before I can move out and thus have a new space to arrange my stuff in and be forced to get rid of everything I don't need as I think that will finally get me to let go of stupid things I hold onto. *nod*
~Lyn
