rose_of_pain: (zukalyn)
Oh hey there LJ! I figured I should actually write something here about this year before it officially ends 'cause I'll be out of town this weekend and will otherwise most likely forget but also feel like I should 'cause 2016 was a pretty big year for me. While I know most folks are complaining about how awful 2016 was actually a really good year for me? ^.^; Feel a little guilty there but it's true. I mean yes a lot of horrible things happened this year to the world as a whole but honestly who's to say next year is actually going to be any better? I don't have my hopes up high. But anyways...

This year started off pretty horrible. Hancock went bankrupt and decided to completely close down permanently. It was rough. Yeah I've had some horrible times working there but also a lot of good memories and it was really really hard saying farewell to the store and to my co-workers. Despite it all, we had developed a little bit of a family-like atmosphere with our group and so many tears were shed from the day Denise and I had to break the news to everyone to the very last day when we turned in our keys. It was also saying goodbye to my favorite store. Even working there couldn't ruin that. JoAnn's is just NOT the same. Though I will say it was pretty nice being able to basically not have to worry anymore about what customers might say about you at the end because pffft can't fire me if we're closing! 'Cause dude did we get A LOT of nasty customers there. A lot of really wonderful ones but also a lot of truly nasty people. I don't know what happened in their lives to make them that way but ugh. I'm just glad I no longer have to deal with them.

So yeah, while losing my job really sucked, especially since I had at the time started considering that maybe I could just stick to this job and commissions to make a did force myself to get out of there. At first it was truly rough. I went out with the thought that I'd be unemployed maybe a month or two at most and well...turned it out was harder to find work than I thought. But I was determined NOT to go back to retail and stuck to that and in the end I was rewarded with a fantastic job! Its front desk at a wonderful organization that helps folks with disabilities in group homes. I love it. I love my co-workers. And it turned out to be surprisingly LGBT friendly. I recently discovered several of my co-workers are also gay and nobody is bothered with it. I also get benefits and vacation time and the work is so much less stressful! The only downside is that I did gain a bit of weight due to not being on my feet as much but I've been walking outside on my breaks and such to try to combat that.

The other big event of the year for me? Well I am now in a healthy relationship. Started dating Rae in August and so far things are pretty great! It started out long-distance but by a strange amazing turn of events, she ended up moving to Rockville due to a good friend of her having a vacancy in their house and also got a job through them. She also just escaped retail so we're both transitioning from retail to front desk together which is also nice. But yes, I don't think I've ever been happier! ...even if I have gained a few pounds. Haha!

I also got to see the Takarazuka OG version of Chicago in NYC and I'm still in a daze about that. Can't believe that actually even happened! I wrote my report on here not too long ago so won't go into details with it but ahhh still can't believe I got a photo with Wao and Komu and got an autograph from Mizu! *_* And the show was soooo soooooooo good~! Ahhh I wish there was some type of recording just so I could share the experience with everyone but sadly I knew going in that there wouldn't be, considering what show they were doing and all. And on a smaller note, I also saw the X-Japan Documentary this year and omg that was amazing too! Like I always thought waaaay back in the day that they really needed a film of some sort because their story is just so tragic and amazing and needs to be told to everyone. I heard it got really good reviews too! Can't wait til its out on DVD so I can ram it down everyone's throats. XD

Commission wise...I kinda didn't do so well this year. I thought with being unemployed I'd have TONS of time to work on stuff and so took on a bunch of projects with this thought in mind...only to have the hardest time focusing, somehow not having any time at all, and just kept being behind time and time again. I did finish 3 commissions this year. But I have 2 that are still in-progress and I'm ashamed to admit that they were both started like early summer. I've barely made a dent in one and the other I've been scrambling to get finished these last few weeks in hopes I get it out early enough to still have time for my stuff for Katsucon. @_@ My own stuff this year went pretty well at least. I did a lot more than last year but a lot of them were pretty simple. Got a bit consumed with Owari no Seraph. XD Like...5 costumes in just one year. Plus did some silly variations with them that I don't count as actual costumes (one wasn't even my costume) but technically I did cosplay like 8 total there. Which is crazy for me! Never done that many for just one series...ever. And I did it all in one year? XD Though my big project was end-game Mikleo from Tales of Zestiria and while not entirely happy with it, I'm still proud of it and I won 3rd place in my division at Otakon. Its also the only thing I entered this year lol though I don't think I'll be entering more than once a year if even that these days cause it takes me that long just to finsih ONE costume worth entering.

Hm I meant for this to be a short quick entry and somehow I started rambling. Oops. So I'll stop there. Probably had other things to talk about this year but I don't remember. Besides I've had like nothing on the brain other than Yuri on Ice for the last few weeks too so that is also consumed me this year. XD

But Happy New Year!

rose_of_pain: (cain - black sheep)
And wow, getting even further behind as this is for LAST YEAR's AUSA which I didn't finish til like 2 months after THIS YEAR's con. XD Oops. Let's see how long it takes me to put up Katsucon's?

AUSA 2015 )
rose_of_pain: (zukalyn)
This is literally just a copy-paste of my tumblr entry but figured I'd put it here too so it's easier to refer back to for my own sake. But this is my report for the OG Takarazuka performance of Chicago that took place at the Lincoln Center in NYC back in July of this year.

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rose_of_pain: (zukalyn)
Soooo I totally failed to get this up before THIS year's Otakon. lol So this is seriously an entire year late. Oops. XD It was also weird writing the end of this after having just come back from the con this year. Haha!

Otakon 2015 )

rose_of_pain: (ginga bishonen)
So I stop being so ridiculously behind on my reports, I think I'm going to try simplifying them a bit. Especially since I'm starting to forget things. lol

(I'd like to note that I said that when I started writing this but it didn't work...I barely finished it before THIS year's Awesome con >_>)

Awesome Con 2015 )
rose_of_pain: (Gil - T_T)
+ Commission - Kozue: DONE
- buy black rose
- finish pants
- sew jacket together
- bias tape
- zipper placket thingy
- shoulder pieces
- collar & cuffs
- buttons/trim
- make rose into clip

+ Commission - AoT gold patches DONE
+ Commission - Mahiru patch? on hold for later con
+ Commission - Rose jacket? - canceled

+ Arrange time to help Jason with his belts? - maybe at con...

+ Yuu: DONE
- make belt once buckle arrives
- chest belt
- belt loops
- attach lining
- buttons/buttonholes
- sword
- boot covers
- take in pants

+ Yoichi: DONE
- cape
- hat

+ Guren:
- finish collar
- attach lining
- buttons/buttonholes
- belt loops
- embroider color guard pins
- make belt
- paint medal pieces
- put together cording
- leg belts
- armband

- fiddle with wig - in-progress

- buy new white gloves or use old ones for Yuu/Guren? going to just use old ones
- repair heels of boots

+ Lucille:
- clean cape
- clean/fix up jacket
- fix seam in boots

- make-up test - doing tonight

+ Fix Zelos' sword - ...might not bother
+ Wash Jude/Yuu wig
+ Buy fangs

rose_of_pain: (cain - black sheep)
Updated my zuka collection list. Think I got everything. XD Kinda forgot to update it since Feb, apparently. lol Though I decided to not put Carrie's list on there anymore. Even though I do have full access to her collection, it was getting a bit cluttered having hers on there too, even if it is almost a shared collection really. She's getting 1789, which should be here by Monday so I'm pretty excited about that one. I probably won't be buying much for a while, which is good for my wallet, but also makes me a little sad but there's honestly nothing coming out that I need to own right now. Probably not until Kenshin next year.

Still going to Disney in October. Have flight and hotel taken care of. Just gotta purchase the park tickets soon. Will be going to Universal for a day too. I'm sure eventually I'll get excited about this. Though right now I keep being nervous over figuring out my schedule and worrying if I'm taking too many days off in the next few months since I'm also trying to figure out this photoshoot and AnimeUSA. I've also been invited to Gabi's house warming party and a doll meet but I have a feeling I'll probably have to pass on both. Ugh, why do things always have to be on Saturdays? Though I do want to go to Gabi's and see the new place. I, once again, am not sure how to get there. And my parents are already helping me get to Brittany's bridal shower and the photoshoot (...and AUSA >_>;). I really gotta find a way to get myself starting on driving distances. I'm just not Since I never have the time to just randomly drive somewhere and I'd like the first few times to be with at least one of them in the car to guide me.

I'm also wondering if maybe I will just stay with Hancock for a while longer. I can't seem to really find anything I actually have skills for job-wise. One of the theaters I once applied for years ago is looking for overhires again BUT I totally bombed the interview the last time (mainly because my skill level wasn't up to par) and yes, I've improved since then...but I wouldn't be able to even do the entire run since its starting in Oct and I've already committed to the store that month and it'd only be through Feb so I'd be back to nothing even if I DID get it. *sighs* I did consider applying for Disney but well it seems too good to be true type of thing? That and that would be a HUGE move and I'd be completely on my own. T_T Kinda was planning on trying to move somewhere closer first with at least a roommate I know...or something.

At least one of my co-workers did point out to me which customer is the costume shop head of one of the local theaters so I just gotta work up my courage to talk to him and casually slide in the fact that I might be willing to do some volunteer work or something. I was going to e-mail that theater with the suggestion anyways since I never heard back from the other one. 'Cause I already know they aren't hiring right now but I gotta make connections somehow.

rose_of_pain: (Lucille)
I seem to be taking longer and longer to write these. XD I now have THREE more con reports to do after this too. x_x;; I know no one reads them but I like to be able to refer back to these when my memory fails me.

Katsucon 2015 report )

rose_of_pain: (elisabeth)
I almost forgot to do this report...oops.

AUSA 2014 Report )

rose_of_pain: (ginga bishonen)
I have those dreams within dreams all the time but this one was a little different. I was in fact having some dream within a dream action going on this morning but my dream self had memories that weren't real.

Like in the dream, I was talking to Tom and Alyce and going through photos on Tom's camera and Alyce was all sad she wasn't at this event I was at where Tom managed to get some photos of me in cosplay with an Aurora Borealis in the background. And in the dream, I had legit memories of this event happening. It didn't just suddenly play out as a flashback. No, I remembered it. I woke up having to think on whether this memory was real or not but then realized it definitely couldn't have. But perhaps it was a memory of a past dream I just forgot about? Cause I have had dreams connect before.

But the memory was of an event where a bunch of cosplayers were all invited to stay at this really nice mansion with an insane backyard for photos. I remember Luna and Ling were there and as often happens with such events, I was being a bit ignored by photographers since I'm not as pretty or interesting as a lot of my cosplay friends. So I was feeling down and randomly Tom showed up to offer to take photos and we went to this beachy area and holy crap look at the sky! lol Except this obviously was a dream cause we were nowhere near any location that would have actually had that visible in the sky. XD Definitely not cold enough. But dude, this wasn't even a small dream/memory, it was quite a detailed long one. Like I remembered there were several times everyone changed costumes and there may have been some swimming involved earlier on too. In the dream I even had to think about what costumes I had worn that day as that part didn't seem too clear but everything else was.

But yeah, figured I should write that down as it was kinda funky.

rose_of_pain: (Gil - T_T)
- Hook and bar on pants
- Buttons on vest
- Cravat + red bow piece - in-progress
- Top hat details
- Capelet collar
- Rick rack on capelet lining
- Sew capelet and lining together
- buckles on capelet
- just need to be hand sewn on
- Bias tape on coat
- Coat lapels and collar
- Cuffs on coat sleeves
- Sew sleeves on coat
- Sew coat and lining together

- Buttons on coat
- Hem bottom of coat (do at con)

+ Fix/style Leo's wig
+ Check over Diamond and Richard to make sure everything is ok
+ Make silly stuff if time permits

Ehh, its getting there.

rose_of_pain: (zukalyn)
This year was an amazing year for me and for two main reasons. My trip to Japan and X-Japan.

I almost gave up on going to Japan several times, mainly because the idea of going alone was terrifying, especially since I never travel alone even here at home. But I did it and it was the single best decision of my life. I have absolutely no regrets (well except that I do wish I had had more time to do things while there, I suppose XD). I know I've been gushing about the trip a lot but it was seriously such a wonderful experience for me. I know feel confident I could go back too and be able to navigate around. I spent several years saving up for the trip with the intent of going there during Takarazuka's 100th anniversary. I saw Takarazuka live finally! After being a fan for 10 years, I finally finally got to live the dream of seeing them live. I was incredibly lucky to get to see Elisabeth (still my favorite show), got to see my favorite sienne Chie up close, and even got to see my first love Osa in concert! All within a week. It was seriously the dream trip for me and it was a truly magical experience. I smile every time I think about any part of it. And chance are you will all hear me continue to talk about it for years to come, so apologies in advance. XD

Since this year was the 100th, I did go a little crazy with the zuka and I think I'm justified with that. lol My collection nearly doubled in size from it all. @_@; But it was just so hard to say "no" especially with all the neat little anniversary things they released. I also went a little overboard with shows I watched. All together I saw around 50 shows in some form or another. XD I'm going to try to calm down a little next year though but we shall see how that goes.

I also got to see X-Japan live in Madison Square Garden, which was another huge dream come true. I almost didn't go because I thought I couldn't justify it after spending a lot of money on Japan and taking so many days off of work but in the end I decided to go and sooooo glad I did. I would have forever regretted it. I saw them live when they came to the US in 2010 but it was a much smaller venue. This really made a difference because they were able to bring their full set and it was just...EPIC. I just wish I had decided to go earlier on so I could have gotten a floor ticket. I spent a good portion of the concert eyeing the open part of that section, wishing there was some way to upgrade to it. Especially since I felt a little lonely up in my nearly empty row. But despite that I still made sure to rock out. XD I also got to see Yoshiki perform a piano concert at Otakon which was another huge event for me. *_*

Cosplay wise...I made only 3 costumes total for myself which is the smallest amount I've done in a very long time. *sigh* Granted Der Tod took up most of my year and then I got focused on Japan so didn't have much time or money to do stuff. Though honestly I'm not sure if I'll be making much more than that from this point on cause its proving harder and harder to find time with work and I'm also picking bigger projects with lots of details that need many hours. Hell I'm not even entirely sure what costumes I'm making next year but most of the ones I want to do are pretty time consuming.

Commissions...were almost non-existent. And once again it was because I just didn't have much time for them. I didn't get many inquiries and when I did, I had to turn a lot of them down due to timing or I'd simply forget to reply and I feel pretty awful and embarrassed by that. I've never been so awful about responding before. But I think its just that my mind had a hard time focusing. I only did 2 commissions this year and they were both only parts of a costume (a Harry Potter robe and pants for one of Corey's costumes). I did a few patches but only during the first half of the year. Didn't get any requests after that, but that's probably a good thing. I closed shop and haven't quite re-opened yet but I did take on a few commissions that I had put to the side so hopefully doing those will get me back in gear. Though I might never fully re-open since I honestly would prefer to spend most of my time on my own costumes now. I get very little profit from commissions and they're very stressful. So I might just pick and chose a few select ones here and there instead of opening up fully.

I also made a big decision involving my BJDs. Because honestly I was beginning to fear I was losing interest in the hobby. I didn't even touch any of my dolls for several months straight. After my trip, I went over and starred at them for a while and no, I definitely haven't lost my love for them. I just got focused on other things. I've just decided to take a new approach to them. Up to this point I had been basing what dolls, clothes, accessories, etc I buy on what I needed for the story I had going for my dolls. I only ever bought dolls if they fit a character in the story, which was great in a way since it kept me from buying on impulse. But I also would spend hours searching for the right outfits and spending hundreds of dollars on stuff I didn't necessarily really want but because it was what was needed for a specific scene. Then I'd spend hours setting the scene up and taking photos. But honestly it hasn't felt worth it. I love my story but only a few other people are even slightly interested in it and pretty sure if I stopped doing it, none of them would be upset. So why bother right? So I've decided to just do what all my friends in the hobby do, and just buy what I want regardless of if it fits the story or not. It still exists. I'm just not doing photostories anymore unless one strikes me that I just really WANT to do. Also means I'm going to probably sell a bunch of stuff I don't need anymore. But yeah I think this will result in me enjoying it more. Though I may still write up some summaries of the story if anyone is interested in knowing how it was going to go (since I did kinda have most if planned out already).

I did not get a new job this year. BUT I have taken a step forward finally. I wrote a new resume and with help from Ren, made it all spiffy looking. I just gotta figure out who to send it to now and start looking for actual potential jobs. I still have no idea what to really look for though but I just know I can't do retail anymore. Even though my boss has tried to offer me an increase in pay, I told her honestly that even the max they could give me there wouldn't be enough to be worth it. I am glad I had the experience though. I was promoted to Assistant Manager in the spring and I was even offered the position of Store Manager even though I turned it down. So hoping at least the experience will help gear me towards...something. But once I at least get my foot out there and try a few things (I don't expect to stick with the first job I get, I know I'll probably end up going through several, etc) to get a better idea of what I'd like to do, I then want to move forward and start paying my own bills and seeing exactly what I have to do to be able to survive. I will admit my parents pay for a lot of my stuff but I plan to gradually change that. Not all at once so not to overwhelm myself but here and there. So ideally this time next year I can start looking into the prospect of maybe moving out.

My 10 year high school reunion happened this year as well. I did not go to the actual reunion because I did not really enjoy high school and there were too many people I would rather not see. So paying to see the grand total of like 3 or 4 people that went who I would have been okay talking to...just didn't seem worth it. It also didn't seem like a setting I'd be very comfortable in. So instead ended up talking to the small group of friends who helped me get through those horrible years and we agreed we should do our own mini reunion. I really enjoyed it and everyone we invited actually came, even if only for a little bit. Most of them I hadn't seen in all these 10 years so it was pretty nice, especially to see that I could still socialize and relate to them even after such a long time. Granted I did have to remind myself a few times that these are my high school friends and not my college friends and thus they aren't going to respond the same way or know the same things, even if it started to feel that way. So I had to remind myself NOT to be surprised by the shocked looks I was getting at my ability to identify nearly every 90s/early2000s animated series theme song. I was confused why they couldn't identify them like I could. ^^;; But then I remembered that's my college crew that was a bit more obsessed with such things. Oops.

The one bad thing about this year is that I did go uber-hermit and I think I hit a mild case of Depression that comes and goes. I was a bit bawfled by this considering I couldn't understand how that could happen when I had such an amazing year. But emotionally wise I'm going through a lot of complicated things right now. I have a very hard time talking about it because I have a hard time forming it into the right words but also cause I don't want to upset/offend anyone since it mostly deals with friendships.

But hey, I did say last year that I thought 2014 would be a great year for me and it was! So huzzah!

rose_of_pain: (ginga bishonen)
This con took place over 4 months ago and I even started writing this over a month ago but then kept getting distracted and didn't force myself to finish it til now...oops. XD Still need to do a report on AnimeUSA too. x_x;

Otakon Report )

rose_of_pain: (ss - hades)
I saw a link to a subbed version of Legend of Sanctuary so finally got the time to watch it. I probably could have watched it raw but I was lazy and never bothered to hunt down a file of it (that and most of the ones i saw were torrents and I can't do torrents) but anyway. I was super torn about this movie from the very first announcement of it and I guess that's another reason I was unsure if I wanted to watch it. From all the trailers and such it was something I really wanted to like but was horribly afraid it'd disappoint me and make me angry, as a lot of the more recent SS stuff has. So while I was right in a sense that there were some big disappointments for me in this, I actually ended up enjoying it a lot more than I thought I would?

Spoilers Ahead )

rose_of_pain: (iri chie)
Day 8 - Tokyo: Tokyo Takarazuka Theater (Last Day)

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Day 9: Tokyo -> Washington DC

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rose_of_pain: (crisis core - cloud1)
Day 7 - Tokyo: Hibiya, Akihabara, & Shinjuku

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rose_of_pain: (romeo et juliette)

The Lost Glory/Passionate Takarazuka! - Takarazuka Tokyo Theater - 9/15/14 & 9/17/14

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rose_of_pain: (iri chie)
Day 6 - Tokyo: Tokyo Takarazuka Theater + Lost Glory

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rose_of_pain: (elisabeth)

S.mile - Tokyo Galaxy Theatre - 9/13/14 & 9/14/14

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