If you don't know X-Japan, you should probably just skip this entry as it'll just confuse you. And I tend to get pretty over-emotional over this band sometimes.
Ever since the band started doing their reunion tour, I've been through a wave of emotions about the whole thing. And must admit I didn't expect them to keep it going this long. I thought it'd just be a few shows and that would be it. Not an actual restarting of the band as it seems to be now. I'm still angry they canceled the show in NYC as that was my best chance to ever see them. And I was a bit upset they did the CA thing without much warning as it left us east coasters with very little time to try to get over there. I would've if I had the money. Now they might be performing at Ipa...whatever the hell that big concert festival thing is called. Which sucks for me too as I could never SURVIVE attending that event and it'd be a lot of money for only one band as I don't care about anyone else performing really. So I'm still hoping they'll either do something closer that's a real concert or well, maybe I will save the money to go see them in CA if need be.
But that's not really the point of the entry. The point was my thoughts on
this. Toshi's big message. Truth be told this brought me close to tears. And I used to be very very angry at this man all those years ago. I hated him for what he did to X-Japan. But finding out he was tricked by his wife (and I so saw it coming though), I feel nothing but sympathy right now. A part of me still wants to say "...deserved it for being so stupid". But his admittance to everything he did wrong and the hurt he had to go through...kinda makes it hard to be angry at him anymore. And just the fact that he's finally gotten past that whole brainwashing thing and is back to our good old Toshi...I don't know...it just makes me really happy.
Toshi was never my favorite member and his voice often grated on me but you can't have X-Japan without him. You can't have the songs sung by anyone else. And I think its doing Yoshiki a ton of good to have him back. So yes I have to this point and definitely still do support X-Japan's choice in coming back. I get very angry at people claiming they're "replacing hide" and shouldn't be breaking their vows of not playing when hide died. But dude, hide wouldn't want them to not play anymore. And they didn't replace him. They've done an insanely good job at keeping his memory alive. And if X can move on from it, so can all you silly fans out there. I mean I don't even do the whole "hide death day" thing anymore. Doesn't mean I love him any less. I just don't feel like its needed to be depressed about it for this many years down the line. I wear my hide earring 24/7 (only take it out when its inapropiate to wear or if it takes away from my cosplay) and I think that's a pretty decent tribute for me. I don't want to be sad over his death but instead enjoy his memory, his music, etc.
Ok, I'm done ranting. XD I try to not voice my opinions on bands very often as I know my views are pretty naive and silly but please don't diss my viewpoint if you don't like it.
~Lyn