Bleed in Blue

I am graduated!

And give me a brief moment to brag that I got cum laude (meaning I had a GPA of 3.6)

...I really wish they had given us a day after graduation to move out though instead of making us leave right afterwards.

Because today was seriously one of the hardest days ever for me. I had to hold back tears so many times. First being when they called out Ian's name and his sisters received his diploma and everyone clapped for over a minute straight. Second time was when I was saying goodbye to my professors (I was doing good until Robin Bates knocked my hat off with the force of his hug, damnit ;_;). Third time was while packing up and my family started rushing me and I didn't know they had plans for the day, I thought I had the full time allowed and was planning to use it all to stay as long as possible.

And fourth time was when leaving the school, of course. I'm going to miss that place so much.

I also went through a lot of emotions the night before. Convocation was amazing as Ben Click, one of my favorite professors, was the speaker and so it was amazing and hilarious. And he put in a whole bit about Ian and Amanda started bawling and I think my focus on comforting her there was what stopped me from also crying.

But man, I am so insanely tired. XP And yes it did rain. lol But at least it wasn't pouring when we walked to the tent. Was kinda funny watching all the parents who couldn't fit under the tent standing there with umbrellas. But yeah, after packing up and going home, had dinner and celebration with the family...except all I really wanted to do was sleep. XP I was so dead. So may go to bed early tonight 'cause yeah...*dead*.

~Lyn

So you know that final video for my class I was bitching and whining about a lot? XP Well if you want to see it, I finally got it up on my youtube account.

The sound sucks, sadly. The sound was a lot better on the actual project but seems to have almost disapeared in some scenes due to most likely all the copying (and well the original sound was low, I had to adjust it a lot). So there's supposed to be CNN drabble in the background of the TV scenes and birds at the end in case you can't make it out.

The project was to make a video no longer than 4 minutes using no dialogue. Only sounds and actions to demonstrate at least one emotion. And this is the story I came up with.



It sucks. I know. XP But it was the best I could do given the time, equipment, and frustration I went through. It changed a lot from its original ending. Originally I had her going insane at the end. The last shot was of her in bed laughing insanely. Kinda wish I had a way of putting that shot somewhere 'cause Emma has quite the terrifying insane laugh. XP It scared the shit out of Amanda and I.

~Lyn

You know, to all you people who seem to think that starving yourself is the best method for losing weight (which I disagree to and will say it again and again), I've got a nice little hint for you...

Become a college student. XP It works wonders.

I have no idea how many days I've gone just this semester with barely anything to eat. Usually not until around midnight too and its always something small. XP And its never on purpose. ^^;; Its a whole lot of being unable to get to food until after its too late, not having anything in my room to eat, sleeping through meals, and just plain forgetting sometimes.

And now that I have no more classes, it'll be especially bad because I have no excuse to leave the room. As I usually get food on the way to and from classes. And already its gone...well. *cough* Saturday I wouldn't have eaten anything if it wasn't for the lucky fact we went to Beth's house for a party she was having and she fed us nachos and chicken tenders. So I managed to eat that way.

Sunday...I didn't eat anything until around 7pm where I got a small Quizno's sub from Upper Deck. And I really should've gotten more food as of course I was still hungry the rest of the night. And today...I have yet to eat anything and no idea when I will as its like pouring now and that decreases my desire to go out as I hate being wet. lol

At least soon I will no longer be a college student. I'll be back at home which means I have a much higher chance of finding 2 meals each day. XP

Edit: 5:43PM - I found food! Yay!

~Lyn

This video project continues to kick my ass. Big time. Ugggh. Went through a lot of issues including programs freezing on me (did I ever mention how much I hate Macs? >>;;), forgetting needed cables and thus not being able to edit at all, having no time, and bad lighting, as well as my professor being so anal with all my shots. He doesn't like any of the stuff I've done so far. >> Screw him.

I've also been going through some major issues of depression and loneliness the last few months. I hate the fact that everyone lives so far away from me and the people that do live in my state I never seem to be able to get a hold of. I have NO social life. Even here at college I just don't have anyone I can really connect with and have fun hanging with.

God I need to get out more often. I want to say its my goal once I'm done with college (which is only in less than a month now) to get out more and hang with people...except I have a terrible feeling that won't happen and I'll just be in my parents' house each weekend feeling terribly alone.

Saturday I went to the sakura matsuri in DC and while most of it was a lot of fun, I had a few moments where I felt really down. And its hard to explain too but it was the same feeling I get at cons a lot. Where I have a lot of friends and people I know present but it seems like I can't connect with any of them and that I'm not really having as much fun as the people around me. Where everyone seems to have people they know so well and can just have a blast without having to try much. And I feel left out no matter what I do. Its odd and I don't know what my problem is.

But anyway, regardless, it was fun, even if I did come back totally sunburned. I organized a doll meet and at least some people came though I was kinda expecting more people (but I was also afraid no one would show up ^^;;). The festival itself seemed to be lacking this year though. Not sure if anyone else felt that but Andrew and Hamilton (who I traveled to DC with) also seemed to be disapointed with it. I think the most fun I had that day was the part of the doll meet when we were at the Sackler garden and the last hour or so of the day when I was just sitting on these steps with Rachel and Kumo (two doll people who decided to hang with me the rest of the day) and our dolls and some other doll people (who missed the meet) spotted us and congregated wit us and we ended up having this sorta-mini-doll-meet right there. XP But of course thats when Andrew and Hamilton decided we should leave, of course, when I was finally having fun again. lol Oh well. I really didn't want to leave at that point.

But there will be photos from the doll meet up on my doll LJ prolly sometime tomorrow. Already posted them on DOA but haven't on the LJ yet as I want to be more detailed in descriptions and I'm just too tired from all this video work right now.

~Lyn

Godamnit, why is it the ONE day we get classes canceled is the one day of the week I have no classes anyways?! x_x

Only thing it changes is that technically we don't have work today. Which is bad as I need as many hours as I can get. Leon said we can still go in, just he won't be there. So I'm debating whether to go in or not 'cause since I only work on Fridays, I have no idea what people are working on the rest of the week so no idea what needs to be done.

Might go in later during the times some of the other girls come in...in hopes they'll come in so there will actually be something to do but....blah. Stupid weather! *grumbles and goes back to bed for a bit*

~Lyn

Whooo! Happy Mardi Gras people!!!

Every year there's a Mardi Gras parade on our campus just of students and more join in as it goes.

Well this year we decided to join in for the first time ever!

We named ourselves the Pots and Pans brigade as that's what we had. XP Oh man, whee, still hyper from it. And my ears are ringing.

I'm in one of those "Lyn are you sure you didn't drink anything?" "No, I'm drunk off life!" dork moments of mine. See, I can be just as outgoing if I try. I just don't need booze to do it.

Whoo, I needed that. Today wasn't really a bad day or anything but I was just in a slump and unmotivated to do anything. So that was a big wake up call.

~Lyn

Amanda (lives above us): "...You guys got suddenly really really loud and I thought someone was dying or something. But then I got more scared when it stopped all of sudden and there was just silence. o_o What were you guys doing?"

...We were uh...shoving Andrew into the shower on cold full blast.

And he decided he wasn't going down without a fight. ^^;;

See, we have this tradition here at St. Mary's that on your birthday you get thrown into the pond. Its called "ponding". I've never had it happen to me as people tend to be nice and know I'd probably end up hurt and crying 'cause I'm a wimp like that.

Well anyways Andrew's birthday was yesterday and all the weeks leading up to it, he kept saying how no one better pond of him due to it being so cold out. So because he made such a big deal about it, we all decided to throw him into the shower instead.

Took 6 of us plus 2 people taking pictures and ocassionaly helping in. Oh and only one of the 2 photo people were male. Everyone else involved was female. XP And don't feel too bad for Andrew. He was smiling and laughing during most of it despite his struggles.

When we finally got to the actual shower stall, Andrew reminded us that his boots were leather. So we took those off. Then said his belt was leather. So took that off and got his cell phone out. Then Gabi thought it'd be nice to keep his pants dry so took those off too. But we weren't going any further than that. XPXP Beth and Gabi both got quite wet during the experience. Gabi got in the shower to turn the faucet on him a few times and got Beth in the process, who also got pulled into the shower with him a few times. And he had a deathgrip on Kat's legs so she had to saunter over and got a bit wet too. Gabi also got a rather big scratch on her palm from him, which was kinda impressive. lol

Our bathroom was a mess afterwards. ^^;;

~Lyn

You know you're a poor college student when...

You find yourself stealing toilet paper from the Campus Center bathroom.

...And your housemates rejoice when you tell them you have done so.

Oh man, I really wish these essays would just write themselves. Blah. So sick of them. And I'm only halfway through the big one and haven't started the smaller one. Urgh.

At least I go home tomorrow. ...Oh fuck, that means I need to pack. -_-;;

~Lyn

So this semester is going to be crazy in the costume shop. Why? Because Leon has appointed me as basically the head stitcher. Because Monica (who usually is the head) is in Italy this semester. I miss her already! We were joking today that we should post her picture up on the wall and make it into a shrine in hopes it will give us good luck. XP

But yeah, we have quite a number of new people. Like twice as many people we had total last year. ^^; So that might be a bit crazy as I'm sure it will get crowded later on. Though like one of the new girls totally has SO much more experience than me and yet she's doing Wadrobe. x_x; I should like tell Leon that I think SHE should be making the big elaborate dresses for the show, not me. ^^;; As I trust her more than I trust me.

So yeah, apparantly I'm going to be given all the hard assignments. *whimpers* Though I guess it will give me more skills and all? But still, x_x, this semester is killing me as is already! I have soooo much reading for each class and now I gotta be in the shop more than ever before. ^^;; Eheh. Never a dull moment I suppose. Just glad I didn't take on a Senior Project. And I haven't even really started my Independent Study so afraid of how much MORE reading I'll have once I start that. (Good grief, having a hard time just getting the right books for it!)

But anyways, so today I come in and Leon is like "Hey Lyn, I gotta run to a meeting. For today....make a kimono, ok? kthxbye!" And I'm like "Woah, wait, what? XP" lol Luckily I do know how to make a kimono so even though the pattern we have had NO directions I was still able to figure it out from memory. Though I had to go at 5pm and felt so bad having Sonya finish it for me as she seemed very confused when I was trying to explain how to finish it. ^^;; Ehh, hope it got done. It wouldn't have taken so long if it wasn't for the fact I had a really hard time trying to find fabric big enough to make it out of. ^^; And was confused as to what color he wanted.

I really hope I don't screw up too badly this semester. I got a lot of pressure on me being in this position now. But thank god Leon is insanely patient and has never gotten angry at me even when I've screwed up pretty bad in the past.

Oh and this semester's play is A Midsummer Night's Dream. Squee! And all the fairies are going to be punk. XP And oh dear lord, Titania's dress....is insane and guess who's going to be making it? >>;;; Uh, at least I'll know how to make a dress now? ^^;

~Lyn

I totally should've posted about this earlier but I kinda forgot it happened...

We had a sudden lock down on campus today. Just as I was about to exit Monty and go back to the apartment, I am told we can't go out as there is a lock down on campus and everyone must stay in whatever building they currently in and they're all being locked.

Turns out there was an armed robbery at (or around, the e-mail did say "outside the area of..." which is kinda confusing, what were they robbing, the graveyard?!) Trinity Church. O_o; wtf! Who would rob that area considering we're like in the middle of nowhere. All that's there is a church, a graveyard, historic St. Mary's, and St. Mary's Hall. None of which would have much money.

And armed even! Though it was kinda scary as that's right next to the campus and where Calvert Hall (one of the dorms) is located. So the dude was in fact pretty much on campus.

He must've been pretty desperate for money if he would rob a place like that. O_o; Oh, and they did say they caught a suspect who may be him. ^^;; Won't even say if it is.

~Lyn