rose_of_pain | Entries tagged with shit happens

Lots of time + the remains of my silicone + stress of trying to get enough silicone mixed to cover item for mold + being covered in goop for a while + almost a full bottle of resin + stress of trying to get enough of said resin mixed + trying to get dye right and getting it all over hands in the process = ....one very useless paperweight.

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I'm honestly surprised I'm not in tears over this. Or maybe I'm just too exhausted to even be able to cry right now. But not only is the resin piece not useable. Neither is the mold. At first I thought it was just air bubbles in the resin but its actual teeny tiny holes on the surface of the piece and upon further inspection discovered there are in fact teeny tiny almost non-visable "dents" (for lack of better word to describe) in the mold. I have no idea how they formed. The ornament I used for the mold doesn't have anything on its surface that looks like them. I can only guess that because it was at the end of my silicone, maybe the stuff that came on that part of it, was old and didn't form right. ...except that the rest of the mold is entirely smooth. So I really have no idea what went wrong.

But that was an awfully lot of money and time wasted and I can't even do anything with this piece. I'm not sure if I should go get new mold material (granted I was planning to get the rubber soon instead as I hate this silicone crap and maybe that would give better results?) and more resin and maybe even a new ornament and risk a chance again and go through the stress all over. Or if I should just give up on my planned image of having the shoulder gems all nice and pretty and instead get another ornament and just paint them.

At least the smaller gems seem mostly air bubble free. But they also appear to still be sticky and I'm hoping its just 'cause its a smaller amount that its why they're taking longer to harden...and not that I got the mixture wrong on them. 'Cause that would mean even more wasted resin.

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~Lyn

Current Mood: depressed

This is just Lyn's bad week all around. See my icon? Well that's what life is doing to me right now. lol

I'm currently dealing with the fact I don't have enough time to do all I need to do. Going to try to do it all anyways. >>; But will probably still be working on stuff Thurs night at the con. Which will be hard considering I've got really late night skit practice and I need to get up early both Fri and Sat. But eh I'll figure it out.

But to top it off, I just got a returned package. The Gii plushie I made? The address on it was wrong so they sent it back to me. x_x I check the e-mail and I put exactly what she gave me. She just got the number wrong as I looked at the paypal account and yeah, just one little itty bitty number was wrong. *headdesk* Not my fault though. 'Cause she told me to use the one in her e-mail and the paypal was from her Dad so for all I knew, her Dad could have lived in a different house. But yeah just sucks as it means I'm going to have to ask her for shipping again and I'm going to feel bad about that.

And now my PS3 doesn't want to work. T___T And no it wasn't even plugged in to anything when the storm went through so it didn't get short circuited (thank god). It works. It turns on. But it doesn't come up on the TV screen. It's not the cable as I switched the PS2 cable with it and same thing. And the PS2 comes up fine. So I think something is wrong with the jack for the cable in the PS3. X_X; Which there isn't much I can do about that so may have to send it in. At least I think it's still under warranty and I know I didn't do anything to it as I haven't even played it in over a month and there's no damage. I mean, unless anyone can think of a reason why it might be doing that?

...at least none of these things are my fault. Everything just hates me this week, I think. lol I just keep telling myself "at the end of all of this, there is Yoshiki". XD Sad I know but it's a good motivator. ...unless he suddenly cancels or something evil like that. hahaha....ha..............ha. T____T;

~Lyn

Current Mood: distressed

So for those who didn't get my frantic texts and calls...

Our power went out at about 3:30pm on Sunday.

And just finally went back on a few hours ago.

Normally this wouldn't be that big of an issue. But being as Otakon is THIS THURSDAY and I still have A LOT to do for it...you can imagine how much panicking went on in this house.

And let me tell you. It's pretty godawful sitting in a dark house with absolutely nothing you can do when you have so much you need to work on. T_T Ended up going to my brother's last night so we could at least use the power tools and the oven for Chopin's new backpiece. Then today I went to my friend Carrie's house and her mother was nice enough to invite Mom and I to the luncheon they were having so yay food! I think my Mom really needed that too as she was going a bit bonkers from the whole ordeal. But yeah I was sewing over there when the power went back on at home.

So...yeah...that was a really bad setback. So don't expect to hear/see me much now until the con as I gotta rush to make this all happen now. T_T; Sucks too as I would have probably gotten everything done before Thursday with time to relax if this hadn't happened. Curse you weather!

Oh and all that it took to knock the power out was one crazy intense storm. Didn't last long but damn! I'm not surprised so many people were without power as a result of it. We had tornado and flash flood warnings and my neighbor's weathervane got knocked right off their roof. Lots of trees down and 2 people died as a result of being crushed by a tree/pole. :/ So yeah. Weather. Not cool. First with the earthquake and now with this. >>;

~Lyn

Current Mood: rushed

I know, I know, everyone's making an entry about it. But holy shit...the internet really did KO because of the news which is kinda crazy. I'm a little confused how. I mean was it just an overwhelming amount of people going on to check information about it? Either way, AIM crashed and the net went bonkers on my end.

But anyways...

It's a very strange bit of news. I mean I lost respect for the man quite some time ago and he really developed a lot of mental issues but I can't just laugh the news off. I feel sad. Why? Because when I was a kid I idolized that man actually. Yup, ok, I said it and I know everyone likes to make fun of me over it but yeah I was not just a fan of Michael Jackson, I was a fan. Actually met my first girlfriend and some of my very first online friendships through the fanbase.

It was always quite depressing to see someone you thought was amazing degrade before your very eyes. I stopped caring years ago but it used to really get to me. He was such a talented man, especially before the whole skin thing. I loved his early stuff like woah. And I must admit that whenever a song by him comes on, I find that I still know all the lyrics. ^^; And not just for Thriller and Beat It since everyone knows those.

But I remember at the age of 13 wondering how I would deal with the day he died. I thought it'd be a lot further off and so I'm just confused as to how to feel.

RIP MJ. Wish you had had a better fate...wish you had gotten serious help when you needed it (before you destroyed your body). You were my idol once so I shed a tear for the man you once were. Not the man you became.

~Lyn

Current Mood: indescribable

Around 4-something we suddenly got hit by this crazy-ass storm that didn't even stay very long but was pretty damn intense for the time it was over us. Major crazy wind, rain that was so heavy it sounded like hail, really loud and insanely long thunder, etc.

And what was the first thing to happen? The power went out! Of course. It always does here when we have any sort of biggish storm.

And I was playing Okami at the time. -_- I wasn't very happy as of course this means I have to go replay the part I was at. Boo.

So we were without electricity for around 8 hours or so. Was pretty boring though it did force us to take out the Lord of the Rings puzzle that hadn't been touched in like, hm, 5+ years. LOL Its this huge puzzle that we worked on whenever the power went out back in high school, most of it being done during the big ice storm where we were without power for several days. Actually got a pretty good chunk of it done between the three of us though we all got a bit frustrated (too many damn pieces that look alike).

And of course as usual the power goes on just when I was about to just go to bed out of lack of anything better to do. XP

~Lyn

Current Mood: annoyed

...there's a house on fire in my neighborhood.

We can see the flames from here and hear the breaking glass.

Fire trucks keep coming...more and more...

I know its too far for us to be in danger but....I'm scared. I've never seen flames so intense. And worried about those who live on that street. We can't figure out who's house it is.

Edit: No one was in the house so they're alright at least.

~Lyn

Current Mood: shocked

So yes, mother's day. And what do I do? First weekend back and I really don't want to go to church and when Mom makes a point out that I haven't in months and that I should, I get fed up and tell her flat out I don't want to go at all. Ever. That I'm not a Christian.

She freaks out. Yells at me, slams the bathroom door on my face, then later demands that I am going whether I like it or not for that reason. Dad calmns her down a bit and says we all have to talk. -_- At least Dad is a bit more accepting. But basically it came down to me realizing it's not about me at all, it's about them. Everything they talked about (with me just being silent, impatiently waiting so I can go back to bed) was something about them and their opinion, never about what my opinion is.

Ok, so they agreed they won't force me. But they seem to refuse the idea that I don't believe in the same things they do. They just accepted it as me doubting. Doubts. That I'm just in a state of confusion. Ok, yes I am. But not about whether I'm a christian or not. I know I'm not. I'm just in confusion about what I believe in general.

And people wonder why I don't want to tell them I'm gay? If they reacted this badly to just that.

I know many of you tell me time and time again that it shouldn't matter. Just stand up to them, etc. Except that I love my parents and I am extremly lucky that I have an actual stable family. I don't want to give that up. I don't want to disapoint them because they've done so much for me.

And I know they'll just once again throw this "Oh, you're just in a confused state..." crap at me again. -_-; And also how they keep assuming that the answer for everything I do is because "I'm just focused solely on my studies." Uh...right. Considering I don't even know what I'm doing with my education...okay. I certainly don't think I'm the most focused.

So then we got talking about Japan and Mom's all panicking thinking I'm not ready or as serious as I should be. Should've seen that coming though. First time I'm going this far from home after all so she has reason to worry, I know. Just wish she wouldn't freak out over little things and yell at Dad and I when it's not a big deal. o_o;

Heh, wow, I'm really not ready. Don't even really know what to pack or what to do going through the airport as I've never done it before. Hasn't really hit me that I'm going to Japan Tuesday morning. But I really do need this break from everything. It'll be nice to have a cut off from my usual life for a while. Just hope I don't get lonely since I don't really have any good friends with me.

~Lyn