meh

[rose_of_pain]

Had a job interview today over at Shakespeare. Was pretty much prepared for the rejection going into it considering I knew I probably wasn't qualified for the job though had a slight hope that maybe my experience at Signature could mean I can work for other places by now.

Eh, not really. lol She kept repeating the fact that I'm just really young (really? It looked like most of the stitchers weren't that much older than me and I keep feeling like I'm actually doing this too late or something...) and haven't had the right experience yet. But that if anything comes up and she needs some smaller overhire work, that she would call me up. Made sure I was available and checked up on my number so there's hope there but really...I don't know if I can keep doing this thing of only a few hours here and there at a theater or two. Especially with how long it takes to get to them.

So my options are to actually go to school for this which the lady at Shakespeare highly encouraged I look into grad school and whatnot as they train you exactly what to do for the professional setting. Or ya know, do a different field. Granted I actually was just about to look at other options before I got that e-mail for the interview. So its not like its that much of a change in plans. Just, I dunno, gave me hope for a second as it would've been a really great opportunity. ^^;

Blah, I hate not knowing what I want to do. lol 'Cause I keep wondering if I have enough of a drive for it before I consider really going to school for the costuming thing. Because I don't want to waste all that money if I don't and I'm not sure if I do or not. I sorta do? I dunno...but at the same time I also have that for things related to what I did study in school. Just ya know, harder to find things for an English major who doesn't want to do Journalism or Teaching (at least not right now, I could consider teaching later on in life but bleeeh not my first option). Maybe I really should find out what exactly one needs to do to become an Editor as that is something I've considered several times but I hear they're cutting down on editors these days. T_T

Argh I wish I was still in school. T_T And ya know, was smart enough to ask my advisors on what I should do 'cause ya know, that's what they were there for? And yet I never did that. *bangs head against wall*

...I am so sorry I keep rambling about this as I'm totally realizing that this is like what, probably the 5th or so entry like this I've written in the last few months? lol Its like my journal consists of either fandom rambles or me being all "I don't know what to do real life sucks waaaiii" /fails

~Lyn

Comments

[xx-wulfi-xx.livejournal.com]

...I'm scared for the real world now. I've got two more years of high school, Lyn! Then college! Waaah, you're scaring me~~~~~! >^<

No, but really, I wish you luck with all that you do. You'll find your niche eventually, just don't be scared to look! ...Or something like that.

My uncle went through two years of college not knowing what he wanted to do and he's technically a genius. He's two points below Einstein. You'll find something, it just comes at different times for everyone. I know this sounds like the same ol' shit, but meh, I don't really know what else to say. =/ Just find something you love, and I mean REALLY love, and stick with it. See where it takes you.

I'll stop babbling now. :'D

[rose-of-pain.livejournal.com]

Why are you scared? lol If you know what you're doing, its probably not as bad? And most people I know from my class are at least a little better off than me. At least they tend to have a bit more of a game plan than my "IDON'TKNOWWHATIMDOING!!!"

Yeah, that's the problem. Trying to find my niche. I've been trying to do that for ages and nothing ever really sticks. I went after the costume shop thing 'cause I thought maybe that was it. But I'm not really sure. Maybe it'd be best to keep my sewing to hobby only.

[shinigami81383.livejournal.com]

The job market for journalism is all online or getting close to non exsistent at this point.

Have you considered editing? I know a couple of the professors at Marywood did text editing on the side and made alright money at it. It might be worth looking into. To be completely honest I'm not sure where you would go to look into that kind of thing but if you want to toss something on your resume remind me when I start posting about AnimeNEXT guide stuff to shoot you copies of stuff for proofing. Tossing in the "non profit organization" bit usually looks good on a resume.

[rose-of-pain.livejournal.com]

Editing (as I mentioned briefly in the post) is in fact something I've always been considering even before I graduated. So like I said, I may think about finding out what direction one does to pursue that.

And I'd most likely be willing to help with editing for that.

[ofthelily.livejournal.com]

Just because you are out of school doesn't mean you can't still contact your advisors for help. I keep in contact with the majority of my professors from Millersville and have been getting advice from them on what to do about my schooling life. I am sure they would be more than happy to reply to an email from you asking for help.

I know it seems overwhelming making these life choice but eventually everything will click for you. You just have to hang in there!